Saturday, June 21, 2014

5 & 5

Short & sweet today

Laments:
1. I hate exercise
2. Daughter barely home & back to disagreeing with me on stupid things. (Why are you eating in my seat? I don't usually-I usually sit there. Not true, as says the mess she leaves behind.
3, awkward reminder as I picked up the youngest from a bday party, that as nice as those mom ladies were, they were never my fiends.
4. Frisked technology that doesn't work. 



Gratitudes:
1. I got to have coffee with Dina
2. Got in a good workout
3. I'm keeping up with the summer challenge
4. Watching Breaking Bad w/another son
5. Great weather today. It was pretty warm, but breezy. 
Bonus: I had multiple opportunities to be bitchy & annoyed today,  but instead I chose to be gracious. What a great feeling!

Friday, June 20, 2014

5 & 5

Today was a bit rough. It ended up ok. Maybe I'll post the story.
For tonight though...the 5 & 5.

Laments
1. My mother is frustrating
2. My energy is lacking
3. I blew up and yelled like a 5 year old today
4. My heels & toes crack something fierce. no matter what!
5. My tailbone still gives me pain after oh so many years

Gratitudes
1. I haven't given up on the workout Challenge
2. I apologized and my son graciously forgave my tantrum
3. Xanax
4. Fun with family geocaching
5. I got to watch Fargo

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Starting the 5 & 5 again

Going through patches of awfulness while parenting an adult child...

Laments:
1. It feels like I will never have time alone again. For this introvert, not getting to recharge sucks royally. Now I have 2 graduated from High school and those college schedules are all over the board.
2. Summer will be mostly held hostage by the consequences of Kitten's actions.
3. Feeling pretty lonely lately.  One of my best friends moved far away. It's for all the right, wonderful reasons, to be close to her grandkids. But I miss her. I wasn't really letting myself feel it until she actually left.  Now I'm feeling it. A lot.
4. I had four other friends cancel on me with plans this week.  Just feeling dogged.
5. I'm still freaking fat!

Gratitudes:
1. I and my family are healthy
2. As much as it sucks, we were diligent to save our tax return, and at least have the money to build a room for Tiger.
3. I washed the drapes in 2 rooms.  The house smells fresh and the dust is gone!
4. I am loving my Bullet Journal system.
5. I do have friends I can reach out to for prayer & support.

night night

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Perspective

Kitten was in a car accident yesterday. She was turning left on an unprotected green. The car is most likely totaled.

BUT MY KIDS ARE OK. I get that. and then, I settle in and think what the heck. We can't afford another car. We can't afford to get it fixed. We can't afford the insurance hike if we were to make a claim.


We try so hard to be responsible with our money and sometimes I feel like - for what. We scraped up enough to buy this great deal of a car so we could have 2 cars... to buy it, to register it, to insure it, for what? for 9 months?


A friend of mine sent this link to this song



I know the Lord loves me. And there are SO MANY what if's... IF Kitten had been a few feet farther, the other driver would have t-boned right into Tiger. IF there had been a pedestrian....etc. I am truly thankful that no one was hurt. and then I just don't get it...


Laments:

1. Can't afford a new car

2. Can't afford to fix the car

3. Can't afford our insurance to go up even if we were to make a claim

4. There's a huge additional load put back on me as far as driving. Not just school, I actually like that...but everything. Anything she wants to do. And the year long theatre commitment she & Tiger are in with late night rehearsals & performances...

5. I feel pretty alone at church. A lot of it is me, I know that. On the other hand, people don't know how to keep confidences, and I'm not willing to risk loose lips with my personal stuff.



Gratitudes:

1. Kitten is ok

2. Tiger is ok

3. No one else was hurt in the accident

4. Hubby was home so I didn't have to go take care of this alone

5. We had a fun family day today for the last day of summer vacation. We took a bike ride to a great park, payed in a creek (well, the boys did), rode back, had dinner in the park we started the ride from.


I love my family

Monday, August 08, 2011

Weekend 5&5

Boy are my titles creative, no?
We just came home from a great long weekend away as a family. We've had such a busy summer and it was so different from my expectations coming into it. (have I griped about this already?) Suffice it to say, the 4 nights away were what we all needed. But coming home to reality sucks whether it's just an over night trip, or 10 days...

Laments:
1, 2 & 3. I came home to find a $250 bill from the lab I took kitten to before we left. All the kids had physicals, and vaccine updates. Kitten has complained of being tired & having headaches, and since I have a gluten allergy/intolerance/whatever I asked for her to be tested for Celiac. The Dr. said she'd also test her thyroid & I thought she said iron. I figured that meant all the usual stuff.
1. Was I surprised to some home and read the lab description: Chlamydia!! Um - no way am I paying for that. Either a) the Dr. ordered that without my consent and since kitten is not sexually active she's not going to have a STD or b) when the lab tech rewrote the lab paper he misunderstood Celiac to be Chlamydia. Either way, someone else is paying for that!
2. The lab paperwork stated that our insurance denied payment saying the patient was not an eligible member at time of service. UH! Then I opened the insurance benefit explanation to read the same thing! UH!
3. Now I need to call out insurance broker and figure all this crap out.

4. Something is going on and I am feeling incredibly hormonal/emotional/wigged out. I am so sick of my bodily chemicals betraying me.

5. I'm feeling overwhelmed by all the stuff to do before school starts.


Gratitudes: (I thought I should end on the positive)

1. For the beautiful camping trip on a nice lake with beautiful weather and minimal bugs!

2. Healthy kids

3. For the moment, technology here seems to be working

4. We came home to a secure house. No theft, fire, etc.

5. Coffee


THIS JUST IN! Ok...so I called the insurance broker who was disgusted at the insurance company. She asked me to fax in the paperwork & she would take care of it (YAY!)

When I called the Dr. office and looked again at the date - this was not the bloodwork lab stuff. This was on the urine culture the Dr. took for what I assumed was to check iron levels like my boys - NOT to check for STD. I will not be paying for that. I'm waiting to hear back from their office. pfff